I am following the stories of 5 families who are right now in China, or going there next week to adopt. I have to admit it is getting harder to just plain be happy for them, which I honestly am, and not feel a deep pain of real envy! I was thinking I was jealous, but looked up the word jealousy,and found out it refers to relationships. Envy is all about wanting what someone else has. They have their kids...and I REALLY WANT MINE!!!Maybe it's just PMS,but I am so green! God please give me grace!