Thank you for the encouraging e-mails, comments! When you find yourself falling into a pit of self pity,it is always a good idea to cry out for help! Sarah is still not with us, but I know I am not alone! Thanks! I got a good idea from a women on one of my Yahoo adoption groups. She said she gave her waiting child a party anyway...and that helped her feel better. I decided to do that! I ran over to the food store and got a strawberry cream cake, candles, and balloons. We eat cake, and painted Sarah some birthday pictures. Even Thomas got into it! Here is a short slide show of the 4TH birthday party for our Sarah sunshine! I also added a video of the kids singing Happy birthday, but you mostly hear our dog Mickey in the video! Keep the good wishes coming, you really lift my spirits!