We had a totally wonderful lunch with our good friends Katrin and Peter and their beautiful daughter Emma. It was kind of funny because they read my blog all the time. I hardly had to tell them how I was doing, they knew! And it was like they already knew Sarah as well. They gave her a really beautiful gift of children’s dishes. It is also a gift from my good friend Patricia...so thank you Patricia! The dishes are really cute. I think I'll hang the plate on my wall! I'm almost afraid to let Sarah use them because they are made of glass, and so nice!!! I told Katrin about my theory of no longer riding the roller coaster of Sarah’s emotions. Trying not to care so much what Sarah thinks of me! I don't know how I will do this, but I do know I must do this. I can not control how my little girl is going to treat me, or feel about me. I hope she learns to love and accept me. I can not make this happen! I do need to realize I am worth something even if she rejects me! The hanging on every smile, hoping for any sign of warmth has got to stop! I can make sure I am worth loving…but I can not make her love me!