Last night I spent an hour looking for airline tickets that might meet our needs. I was very discouraged because the good flights are all booked, and I thought it was going to cost us 2 or even 3 times as much money to get to China! I feel very much like we are headed for the perfect storm! Juergen and I prayed for Gods help and favor! This morning I found my dream flight (direct and over night) for a dream price. In fact these tickets are over $2000 less then the best price I found yesterday! Now I just need a TA and a consulate appointment! Thomas's passport came today (I expected it on Monday). God willing I will be able to apply for all our visas (except Juergens) on Monday. Juergen can pick the visas up next Friday, and get an express visa for an extra 30 Euros. I'm having trouble sleeping. I really wish I did not have to blindly prepare everything, and hope we will make it work. It would have been so nice to have a month to book the tickets and rooms etc...I wish the timing was different. No trade fair, no vacation limitations. I'm always stressed out before we travel. I do all my worrying before the trip! Once we leave for the airport, and I can not do anything else, I relax. The details stress me out! The sooner I can nail these details down the sooner I'll be able to breath! I may need to break my chocolate fast...I really need some chocolate!!!I know God has all these things in his grip, but I'm having trouble making the knowledge of this truth make it to my emotions! Somehow I think if I had real faith, I would be sleeping like a baby!
We do not walk by sight or emotions. Even if I'm a basket case, I know I am going soon to pick up Sarah. When I think about getting Sarah I start to cry. What a wonder, what a gift! I know I'm not going to remember any of the stress or wait... none of my kids came into our family in a stress free way. I guess I'm just feeling the labor pains!!!